Unbreaking the mind

Mon 13th of April 2026.

Trying to help get my head straight and help with the concentration I’m gonna be making notes like a log cause brains all over the place. I’m not remembering stuff so I need to make notes of things. I’m using Notes on my phone to dictate so the grammar will suck!

I’m still feeling out of my depth at work there’s JavaScript which I’m basically the structure of the language I can kind of understand but then when I think I’ve got a grasp of it it just doesn’t do what I expected to do so I end up having to Google stuff and then find the answer that way so I’ve got a basic idea of what I want to do. It’s just the execution that I’m having problems with I guess that’s just all part of learning. The good news is my theory was working and it actually did what I wanted it to do in the end so there’s that.

There still a lot of things that end up in the queue that I’m just not entirely sure about so this Work that I know I need to do so I tend to avoid picking stuff up out of the queue because I know I’ve got other work to do which I feel it might be wrong. I need to pick stuff up out of the queue that is going to challenge me but I’m not gonna be able to fix it as fast as the other people on the team so whether that’s the right way to think about it or not I’m not sure but that’s kind of the issue at the moment.

I picked up a ticket today. That’s going to be a challenge 15,000 lines on a spreadsheet that needs to update user records with mobile phone numbers I know that it’s gonna be done via our transport map so I can upload the file via a transfer map and then do a coalescence on the email address because it’s over 15,000 lines 15,000 records. I’m gonna have to break it down into 15 sheets of 1000 records each and then upload each sheet individually but the worrying thing about that is whether the coalescence or whether the transformer will actually work after doing the upload I don’t wanna go uploading it. Update 15,000 records with the wrong information. It’s gonna help doing this one because of a story that I’ve got at the moment is along the same kind of lines there’s an LDAP transform map that I need to build that’s gonna be coalescing on. I would imagine email address as well but again I don’t want to go overwriting the record already on the table me one of those are gonna have to do it to learn how to do it.

Unfortunately as I overthink things my brain gets foggy and I get confused and Logic starts to fail. I think that’s why I’m having problems with JavaScript. I know the structure the function can runs through in sequence and then you get the variable that equals two parameters or if a variable equals a parameter and then there’s an if statement so if the variable equals a certain variable then do a thing return of value but there’s a lot more to it than that It’s knowing what the variable is going to be and what the value of the variable is going to be so when I’m doing Google searches it’s giving examples but then translating that example into my working example that’s why I’m having problems with methods and parameters and values and variables and it’s the syntax as well that keeps failing me so carry on learning I guess.

Another thing of issues with at the moment is processes within the scope of the role whether there is something I can do whether there is something I should do whether it doesn’t bother the repercussions of doing a thing. One thing I forgotten to do today was speak to my colleague about elevated access to the Google project file for the Google chat story that I’m working on must remember gotta do that tomorrow and I’ve gotta do some training on legacy workflows and playbook and new workflows.

Something else I must do is get early night cause I’m only sleeping like between 5 or 6 1/2 hours a night which certainly need more than that. Also need to get back outside and do some walking into some more exercise again and obviously changed my diet a little bit and trying to eat more fresh food which I have been doing. I had stuffed pepper yesterday which was quite nice. I’m eating bags of baby leaf salad and mixed leaf salad so that’s kind of working out quite well at the moment I’m enjoying that but I’ll probably do tend to put too much sauce too much dressing on like their Caesar salad or Thousand Island dressing just to give the leaves a bit of flavour that’s probably not doing myself any good, but I am eating more fish which is probably also helping. They seem to have cut out sugar recently and then I tend to have a grave again for it so balance and something else I need to work on I think.